I have a wonderful husband who loves me and takes care of me; a sweet stepson who keeps me on my toes; a precious baby boy who makes my heart swell; and of course the cutest little weenie dog in the world. I am so thankful for my perfect little family and the life we have together.
I have a beautiful home that keeps me safe and warm and plenty of delicious food to eat. And unlike so many others in my community, my house and belongings were spared from flooding this year. I am so thankful for my sanctuary and a place where my family creates memories every day.
I recently started a new job that I love. I feel a renewed energy for my career and a passion for what I do more than I have in a long time. I am so thankful to have found a career that fulfills me outside of the home.
Financially, I still have a long way to go, but our family has paid off a ton of debt these last two years and I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am so thankful to be on my way to financial freedom that will allow me to live and give like no one else.
I have my health, my family and friends, and I am happy.
But I am also still grieving the loss of a child. It’s been four months, and the pain I feel has not changed over time. The only change has been in the way that I grieve.
As difficult as it is, I try to focus on the silver linings that have come from losing Griffin. While I am certainly not thankful to have lost him, I am thankful for all of the powerful lessons the experience has taught me.
Losing Griffin has reminded me that all life is a precious gift. There is no such thing as bad timing when it comes to creating a life. God has a plan for all families and all babies. Losing Griffin has reminded me to have faith in Him and His plan for my life.
Losing Griffin has opened my heart to the suffering of others. It’s taught me greater empathy and reminded me that, especially when it comes to the journey of fertility and pregnancy, you never know someone else’s struggles … and often don’t know about their losses. Miscarriage is such a taboo topic for some people, and losing Griffin has taught me that sometimes even those you least suspect may be suffering too, and often in silence.
Losing Griffin has ushered me into a community of people that no one wants to join, but that everyone involved has a very special bond. The loss community is such a strong, powerful group of people, and I am so glad to have come in contact with some wonderful people who share not only a mutual pain, but also a hope for the future.
Losing Griffin has given me something else to look forward to when God calls me home. When that day comes, I will finally meet the child I never got to hold in my arms here on Earth.