A year ago today, at 3:14 a.m., you were born into this world and my life will never be the same as any second before.
Only 5% of babies are born on their due dates. I was born on mine and you were born on yours too. You were on time, but you sure did make things complicated. I had a plan, but you had your own.
That should have been the first sign you’d have my personality.
And you do. You may look just like your Daddy (except for the frizzy hair), but you are impatient and get “hangry” like nobody’s business. Trust me, I understand. You get that from me.
You also are loud, needy, stubborn, and willful. Those may sound like negative qualities to some, but it’s those very same personality traits that make you affectionate, strong, determined, and passionate. You cry hard, but you love just as deeply.
There are so many things I want to teach you, so many things I want for your life. I want you to learn the value of hard work and for you to understand that you are not owed anything and deserve nothing that you are not willing to fight for. I want to teach you respect, compassion and kindness and how to be a light to those around you. I want to instill in you faith in Christ above all else and a sense of self worth that can move mountains.
But I’ll let you figure out this walking and talking bit first.
I’m convinced that if a mother were able to hug her child with the full force of her love for him, he surely would not be able to breathe. So instead, we hold that love in our hearts, and at times, it just bursts. Sometimes when I am rocking you to sleep, I am so overcome with love for you that tears form and fall down my cheeks. I’m sure some would argue that love is not a physical feeling, but I would have to respectfully disagree. Because in sweet, simple moments like that, I can feel love swelling through my body.
We have only had one year together, but already it’s been the most amazing, exhausting, exciting, wonderful year of my life. Thank you for opening my heart and for helping me to be the best version of myself.
Happy Birthday, my sweet boy. I can’t wait to watch you grow throughout the years. I love you more than I’ll ever be able to say with words.